突然感想

我想我可能永远都忘不了那种被放弃的感觉。。

有人说只要你努力过就不会后悔。。

我曾努力所以我没后悔但是却伤的更深。。

它回来了

那种很讨厌的感觉回来了。。
本来蛮感动但是到后来。。还是一样！

不管我多想遗忘，它和他还是存在的。
只是被埋没在心里的最深处。

我已尽量。不管以后会变怎样都好，我应该开始准备心情了。
谢谢你告诉我，不然我还傻傻的继续等待rainbow.

I'm moody now.
Its saturday blues...

I hate penang! Especially the driver of PHT 9490!
How can he drive so fast in small road..and bang my car! Now i got no car to drive. I feel I am giving troubles to ppls around me. haih. Especially my housemate, colleagues and friends.
I need them fetch me go work and back from work.

It was my first accident, but it was REALLY bad! I didn't cry..but I was shocked and couldn't believe what actually happened.... =(

Now my dad borrow his car for me to drive. I must drive extra careful! I am glad..at least i got transport to go work and back from work. I really sorry. I make my parents need to ride motor and borrow car from relatives. I'm a bad daughter. =(

我就是那么懦弱

现在就像一个小女孩偷偷躲在房间哭。
就是因为这一首歌。。把我的寂寞都叫醒了！



从我开始在槟城生话就觉得会横不容易。因为担心一个人吃饭一个人逛街。
我不喜欢一个人生话。最近没什么吃晚餐因为觉得一个人吃晚饭很可怜。就连打泡也觉得不好意识。我还真失败。若不是我真的很饿，我可以放工后回去随便吃yogurt或只是喝水。

写了这么久，泪还不停的流。。 T_T
这几句真的叫醒我的寂寞了。。。
“少了一个人宠爱我，朋友的爱 成分就是不够。。最难过是笑着面对被羡慕自由”
还有就是。。
“少了一个人拥抱我， 那拥抱能够忘了所有！”
跟。。
“少了一个人 懂得我， 能体会我倔强又脆弱”。

也好，好好的哭一场吧！

 - 傻女孩 -

The pathway to begin...

Has been jobless since I got my final result. I never thought it is so difficult to get my first job.
I wanted to enter big firm to start up my career of course, but it is not easy for me. Went for a few interviews but didn't meet their expectations and got rejected.

Then I started to feel depressed and thinking whether my result not impressive enough compared to other candidates since most of them are ACCA holders but I still left 5 papers to obtain ACCA qualification. Apart of it, I also feel maybe my internship experiences aren't outstanding since i chose to do my practical in small audit firm. I feel really sad today, I should choose those big4 when they offer me internship chances. Now, to climb up their ladder is super duper hard already. =(

But, I agree with my friend that since I am called for their assessment and interview, most likely my result has met their requirements. Hence, to get the job is more on my performance during interview session. I guess I really have to prepare well for next assessment and interview!

My relatives keeps asking me work in very small audit firm to gain experience. But I don't know if my working experience in those companies can help me achieve my career goal. I really really dream and wanted to work in one of the Malaysia's leading companies. I don't know if I should accept their offer or continue apply for reputable companies even though it takes longer time. I am so dilemma and don't know who can really really really give me wise advice.... career coach needed!!

Many thank yousssss

Although it is a little big too late now. But i still wanna say that..

I AM GRADUATED FROM UKM 

WITH BACHELOR'S  DEGREE IN ACCOUNTING 

WITH SECOND CLASS UPPER HONOURS! :D :D

I finally survived after 4 years of hard works, heartbreaks, complaints, etc etc. I still remember that I nearly gave up during my 2nd year cos I did really bad compare to other course mates, no matter how hard I studied, I still fail to get first class cgpa. I was really down until someone special who is my ex bf now, KY who really really really important to me that time. He keeps encourage me and be there for me whenever I am down. A big thank you to you, for everything you did for me. =)

In these 4 years, I actively participated in a extracurricular activities from college, university and faculty to help myself gain more leadership and communication skills. From that participation, I gained many good friends along! =)

• These are some of my first year photos..which makes me feel I gain so much weight now and looking old..sobs! Btw, it doesn't mean UKM food is yummy but I think I lack of exercise and too stress that cause my hormone imbalance.. sigh~

Family photos on my first day enter UKM! My parents and siblings and even myself look different now! :p

First friend in UKM! Also, a very smart coursemate and best sing-K mate!
Thank you for  all your help and companion throughout 4 years of University life! :D

First group of friends in UKM! We had memorable moments during orientation week! :D

My first room mate! Thank you for being my room companion! Living alone should be very scary in hostel!

First sketch with faculty mates, I played Witch's role in that funny version of Cinderella's Sketch! :p

Group photo after the show! It was really funny! The man in towel won best actress award, whom he's a man! =p

Another sketch for one of the courses..I am the witch again. haha! I look like evil? =p

Very small table with all my studies stuff..so i moved out in 2nd semester!!! =)

• I move out to Fasa 3, which is just 5min away if I am driving. Living with new peoples isn't easy. But at least, we still going well. Just that I really hate to have TOO MUCH money conflict. Thus, I move out after one semester. Anyway, they are still very kind if not because of money issue. =)

•  These are some photos taken during my participation related with accounting! teehee~

Organizing committee - Accountancy Week 2009

National Accounting Career Conference 2009

My group members - CIMA Global Business Challenge 2011

Thank you Dar Dar for choosing me as your team mates! =)

• I love every Sunday when I was in UKM because I have choir practice almost every Sunday! I really love singing in choir because it feels so harmony when all of us using our unique voices to sing out a song into medley! =)

Christmas caroling 2011 =)

My best choir partner! :)

Senior's convocation~

My dearest choir senior that always guide us =)

Place where we stand when sing for UKM convocation!

So I've been singing 4 years to all graduated senior..and my convocation is on 20th October 2012 Afternoon Session! =)

 

With her again.. :p

I look so young when im in first year! =p

Hope our friend never last although we have graduated! :)

• I also represented my university for Volleyball Tournament when I was in 2nd year! I really proud that I was choosen! =)

My jersey! I wanted No.9 but choosen by other members alrdy..so i picked 12.. 

With all team members! Both women and men's team!

•  In these 4 years, I really gain great friends, great course mates, great group mates, great study mates and great housemates! =)

Birthday celebration for my second room mate in UKM! Together with our dear friends! =)

Birthday celebration with my 3rd roomate! Hehee..

BBQ at my 2nd house at Taman Tenaga, Kajang! :D

We used to celebrate birthday in hostel room..cause that time we don't have transport to drive out

Gatherings at Jogoya Buffet with 50% of my coursemates! :D

My lovely friends in UKM! ;)

First time being the protocol ajk! Was standing there to wait for VVIP's arrival.. 

With all the protocol's committee members for Pesta Tanglung UKM! 

All protocol need to do most of the time is...SMILE :)

Besides Artisukma Choir, I do miss joining this Tiong Hwa Club! A lot crazy moments was spent in this club..like preparing works till midnight! Always have discussion and post mortem till 3-4am! I left this club when I moved out to Fasa 3. Too bad~

Given chances to be the Director of Protocol in Tiong Hwa Club was really a memorable and great experience!
I really thankful to have all the committee members helping me in Malam Tahun Baru Cina! Love all of you~

Went Sarawak with friends! I miss their kolo mee! =)

Langkawi trip with coursemates!!! :D

I must put this picture because..I did my best presentation for my best lecturer in UKM! Imagine, talking about MFRS 138 Intangible Assest in 30 mins without looking at notes. It was really hard and I put a lot efforts!
Thanks to my groupmates also!
My lecturer really proud of me! :D :D :D

• During Final Semester, it was really the toughest semester compared to previous semesters. As I lost someone who is really important to me! I'm glad I learn to be independent and manage to did very well for my final semester. I must thanks to my dearest family members for their endless support and encouragements when I feel like giving up!!!! Thank you mama Thank you papa Thank you mei mei!!!! 我爱你们!!! T_T

One of my bro not in the pic..I just realize no recent family pic with him!
He's too busy working..next time must take more with him! 

Might be our last gathering at Hai Tang Steamboat, Serdang! All lengluis~

Went KLCC for our final year shooting! ekeke~

 

My dearest coursemates! We often go out together! =)

Photoshooting in our Faculty's main entrance! =)
A for Accounting!

• Currently, I am still jobless but I will not give up in pursuing my career and future goals!  =)

  

 I am very grateful, thankful and appreciate all the supports and encouragements especially from my family and relatives, KY, James, Charlene, Elaine, Bee, Pjuan, Lim, Siew Yoke, Karen and other No. 6 housemates, Jia Yen, Lilyn, Dr. Fairuz, Dr. Azlina, sing K mates and many others who were there for me!

THANK YOU to ALL OF YOU!

Happy Day vs Emo Night

It must be my 'gf' disturbing my mood. Feeling really emo and feel like talking to somebody.
Then have some random thinking which is, why some love quote always says when u love someone you should let them go? For me, I thought once u choose to love that somebody then u should not let them go easily.

So confusing that letting go is kind of love, as for holding on is kind of love too.

By,
Confuse girl